Jury Duty
Loaded down with compromise
And purple with potential in our breath
We’re tired stories
And whispers late at night into the phone
With bruises on our ribs and egos
From parking fines and shoulders on the street
Intentions tangled
Like two teens trying hard to be alone
Let’s list the reasons why we’re too afraid to sleep in the dark
The sound of fridges and the sting of the past tense
Show me the games you play to keep away the worst of your doubt
And I promise
I will never lie again
There is beauty in our bodies
More than fumbling locks and keys
Hold my hand and say it with me
I am not my insecurity
There’s one thing keeping your clothes on
And it’s not me
Let’s break the floor beneath our beds and dig for something we lost
I don’t remember what it’s called but I miss it
Another evening dialing customer support to just talk
But I promise
This is not the end of us
Let’s make my noisy upstair neighbors into cloud shapes
And see if everything is better after midnight comes
Please take us home
Wordless, linger in the doorway
You won’t regret your choices ‘til she leaves
The distant gavel
You wanna go, and yet you still remain
Let’s list decisions that we wish we didn’t have to survive
I’ll show you all the wilted photos they come with
Show me the usernames we made when we were comedy queens
And they’ll make us
More than what’s been done to us
Let’s list the reasons why we’re too afraid to sleep in the dark
The sound of fridges and the sting of the past tense
Show me the games you play to keep away the worst of your doubt
And I promise
I will never lie again
Young/Lovely
Certainty
It’s the Safeco screen
Shout out the answer the ball in the hats
One, two, three
Suddenly
Not so quick to choose
So fixed on the fine print you balance regret
With what you’ll lose
Trick or treat
(Tear apart your old receipts)
Bring your old receipts
Sort out the letters and we’ll spell out words
Too small to see
Darling
I’m not laughing as loud as I used to
I don’t sleep
Could you call in sick tomorrow?
Cause this joke might take all night
Honestly
(Smile like you’re scared like me)
Are you scared like me?
Not of the monsters at war and bombs beneath beds
But of little lies
Like sympathy
(No pink pills a full night’s sleep)
And a full night’s sleep
I’ve built a prison from read receipt times
Do you wanna see?
Darling
I’m not laughing as loud as I used to
I can’t keep
Calling home expecting answers
Is this what I am now?
I’m stuck but don’t know how
Both roads getting steeper
I’m trapped by procedure
Tell me which goodbye to write
Hang my bachelor’s degree
From the ceiling
Buy a fat plastic bat down the street
I’m hosting a party
Let’s take a few swings
And see what comes out beyond candy
We were born far too late for the oceans
And the same but too soon for the stars
The age of anxiety bubbling up
Over windows of borrowed and filthy cars
Our only frontier is our fleeting sense of meaning
And we’ve got a few hours until morning
If you wanna talk it out
Look at me
All these doors I’ve shut
All of my memory’s got red and blue wires
I’m scared to cut
Darling
I’m not laughing as loud as I used to
I feel cheap, why’s the future so misleading?
Think hard with me
Try to believe
We’ll make our life like the movies
I think I left my faith inside the theatre
With whatever get better means
Where I cried at the final scene
Showing us with some scissors and foul-line seats
Making choices with nothing but sweet beliefs
Singing:
If we can’t be young and lovely
We will just be young